satoshitomi | Entries tagged with rl: misery. i has it

It's 1:12 in the morning but I felt the need to open up my laptop to say this.

I hate the xxxHolic live action series.

Hate it with BURNING PASSION.

Goddamit, I don't know what drugs the scriptwriter was on but WHAT THE EFFIN HELL, all of the episodes were practically re-written to center around HIMAWARI.

Following what I know of the anime (because I haven't have the time to read the manga yet), ALL of the episodes used in the live action were supposedly centered on building the trust and relationship between Watanuki and Doumeki--Angel-san, Hydrangea and Yellow spider specifically. I HAVE BEEN ALL GIDDY WITH DELIGHT WHEN I FOUND OUT THEY INCLUDED THE SPIDER EPISODE. The part where Watanuki sacrificed his right eye in exchange for Doumeki's sight and then Doumeki offering half his sight for his? I WAS SO READY TO SEE IT IN LIVE ACTION I WAS PRACTICALLY VIBRATING WITH EXCITEMENT. And then... THAT PIECE OF ASDFGHJKL HAPPENED.. D8 HIMAWARI WASN'T EVEN SUPPOSED TO BE IN MOST OF THOSE EPISODES.

I have never been this disappointment with a live action before. Yes, the look and feel of the drama was great but I feel that the script just DESTROYED IT.

Ugh. Anyway. I'm going back to sleep now and wallow in misery. That was a waste of my time. Well, at least I enjoyed the eye candy that was Doumeki's character (although he was too expressive/talkative for the original Doumeki :/) Also, he looked like Jun in some angles. A manlier Jun...*wiggles eyebrows* 8D

gawddamit MANLY JUN LOOK A LIKE YASS \(*w * )/
(one of the very FEW Douwata moments of the drama ;_; *sniff*)

On a slightly better news: I LOVE 'Aitai'! :D Suga Shikao's songs for xxxholic are really awesome! 19sai from the 1st season of the anime is my fave. <3

Current Mood: annoyed
Current Music: Aitai- Suga Shikao

BECAUSE

I AM JUST

EMOTIONALLY INVESTED

THESE TWO

ALSO..to hell with the lj cut!! \8''D/

Current Mood: depressed

He chuckles and she giggles, tucking her hair behind her ear. Laughter in the background. Escalate.

She sits back and he continues, tugging at the frayed edges of the shirt she was wearing. She laughs and replies with a smile that doesn’t reach her eyes. Unnoticed.

Someone grabs her bag; brandishes it for the world to see. ‘Un-girly’, they joked. She laughs with them, shifting a bit in her seat. Judgement.

The bell rings. She walks home alone, her ears still ringing with their words, just like the day before. Sighing, she hopes tomorrow will be different. Rinse and repeat.

/story in 100 words. like wtf am I doing with my life? XD

Current Mood: blah
Current Location: werk
Current Music: Kotoba yori taisetsuna mono

So, I'm at my new job now.

I guess you could say it's a step up. Five months into it, and I'm still trying to navigate through a hodgepodge of different (and most of the time difficult) personalities. Still, I thought it was better than the depressing start I had from my previous job but I'm kind of finding out right now that people here can be just as terrible. :/

This made me realize that you never really realize all the good stuff you had until you've already move on to another job. /sap

X'D

Ugh. Anyway. Much excitingness is planned tomorrow as I'll get to see my arashi berks again after five months (wow, I live under a rock. I am such a loser. XD).

/dances FUNKY

Also. WHO WAS PHONE? 8D

download

Current Mood: aggravated
Current Location: werk
Current Music: P.A.R.A.D.O.X.

SH*T.

DI BA PWDE TIGILAN. LECHE. BUONG MAGHAPON NA KONG NAGTATRABAHO. AND ON A FREAKING SUNDAY. YEAH. SUDDENLY IT'S LIKE 'F*CK YOUR LIFE AND PLANS, MAAN. GO SLAVE ON AND LIVE THE REST OF YOUR DAYS TYPING UP F*CKING PRESS RELEASES UNTIL YOUR EYES BLEED RED AND YOU DIE.'

GAWDDAMMIT. BAWAL BA TALAGA MAGKAROON NG BUHAY? WALA PA KONG NARIRINIG NA AGENCY NA GANITO KA GAG* ANG SYSTEMA AH.

TAKTE. TAKTE. TAKTEEE.

MAMATAY NA KAYOOOOO.

*stabs air*

ARRRGGHHH.

Current Mood: aggravated
Current Location: WORKING ON A WEEKEND LIKE WTF.
Current Music: THE SOUNDS OF MY LIFE AND SANITY SLIPPING AWAY FROM MY FINGERS

REALLY WORK? REALLY?

Ano ba? Pati weekend bawal na rin??

*does a Yoshimoto-sensei breakdown*

ARRGH.

DEAR SWEET MOTHER OF EFFING BALLS

I hate my job.

I just signed in for a moment to forward an email and my boss chose that exact same time to send me a direct message saying I should draft a f*cking write-up for the next wave cities and I was all:

'asdfghjkl
BAWAL MAGPAHINGA?
BAWAL MAGKABUHAY?
BAWAL MAGKASOCIAL LIFE?
BAWAL MATULOG?
BAWAL MAGKAKALULUWA??'

F*CK. DIE YOU PEOPLE. DIEEE. ;___;

So,

I cannot believe that I spent Wednesday's last hours trying to drown out the stupidly opinionated voices of my lovely officemates.

Okay, let's reel back a few months to January when I finally managed to escape my first job (which I magnificently managed to survive for two years, mind you). I thought that anything else was better than playing the employee stuck in the suicide-inducing job that I had before but I was wrong.

So very

very

very

wrong.

I thought I was past working with childish officemates when I graduated from my previous job. The place was a gossip-mecca but I see now that despite that, there's still a sense of decency with those people. Now, with my new job, I feel that I just went back in time to the treacherous and uncivilized jungle that is high school.

(sorry, post is kick-ass long. .__.)

( Soaking me up some rants... )

Anyway. Here's to hoping I survive. Please. I just want to finish a year, save some money and build a good resume. I'm not asking for much but... *grovels* :((

On the lighter side-- I finally got me a gym membership last week. 8D Been doing some warm-ups these last few days to get ready for the real deal at the start of April. YAAY! 8D 8D 8D

Current Mood: annoyed
Current Location: under yo bed
Current Music: 嵐: Breathless

Dear sweet balls of squid.

It's like all my writing capabilities vanished overnight. T^T

I feel that the advertorial I just wrote for work was a monumental piece of sh*t and I don't know how to make it better.

guh.

and.

quartered, I'm so sorry, I haven't started on your letter yet. When I finished this damned advertorial, I swear... amsdnasknfasknjf D: D: D:

*sobs*

oh. and. BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR. NADEGATAJAPAN! Onwards to another year of epic fails and sloping shoulder jokes! 8'D

KAGEYAMA! THE CAR!

Current Mood: D8
Current Location: work
Current Music: Nickelback: Far Away

So,

I just wanted to say that I didn't win anything on the company bingo night.

Curse my rotten luck.

CURSES!

Current Mood: :(
Current Location: work
Current Music: dead air

I stubbed my toe.

;___;

PAIN. SO MUCH PAIN.

Ugh. I feel the need to vent my anger on something.

*bites pillows*

DX

I wrote fanfics at work today ♥. *random*

Current Mood: :((
Current Location: Las Pinas
Current Music: the melodious sound of the electric fan

F.

I feel as if I've just been slapped in the face.

Repeatedly.

Hard.

And with a f*cking mallet.

It's not as if I'm asking for much but... just.

Now, I don't know. I want to give up on you people already. This isn't the first time. I already got it out on tumblr weeks ago (which I deleted hoping that I was just on one of those 'hormonal' days). I thought that maybe I was being too sensitive and that you're just too caught up on things...but now...

Now, I don't know anymore.

I'll say it again-- I don't ask much as a friend but a little bit of affection and appreciation makes me happy now and then. I'm only human, ok? I'm sorry if I'm feeling this way. I'm sorry if I feel under appreciated, used and too darn sensitive. I'm sorry if I come out too childish. I'm sorry if I try too hard. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

This morning was the last straw. When I read what you wrote... that did it.

In the end I don't know what else to say but 'I give up. You're not worth the effort anymore'.

I don't want to waste my time in trying to help someone who doesn't appreciate/want it.

Bye. :'(

Current Mood: angry
Current Location: work
Current Music: Season

I've been cleaning the creative department for three days now.

I am proud to say that it looks like a real office now (especially Sempai's table. I got rid of all the food marks/pieces of oil film scattered around her table. UGH. T^T).

Oddly enough, I wasn't a neat freak to begin with. I just feel the need to have everything clean around me. D:

( the amazing before and after pics... )
So, I actually managed to leave a mark last 11-11-11. My first PR for the paper came out that day. Not much but, hey, it's getting your work printed on paper so... 8Db

I only have (or rather, had) one wish for 11-11-11, and that is happiness for me and the people I love. My friends, my family, the fandom and of course, arashi. ♥!

Let's go on for another year filled with hopes, dreams, laughter and happiness together! ♥ Together forever ♥ !

Note: DAMN YOU AEs. YOU ARE ALL SLAVE DRIVERS. D: D: I OUGHT TO WRAP THAT TELEPHONE CORD AROUND YOUR NECKS. snfjnakfjasnjkfasf. HATE. SO. MUCH. HATE. and ~~stupidity.~~ T^T

Current Mood: D:
Current Location: work. sajfsbajkfbashbf
Current Music: ~Becky♪♯: Buruba <3

I can not believe I cried at an interview.

X'D

Well, in my defense, my Yaya and grandma's deaths are still pretty much a sensitive topic. :( But anyway, looking back, I kinda felt that I looked pretty pathetic then.

I was all: ;___ ;

while the interviewer was: : l

Hurr hurr. X'D

Dunno how that affected my application though and I'm crossing my fingers that me ~~whimpering pathetically~~ crying didn't hurt my chances of getting the job. :/

A gif for the road:

The AibaHyena laugh. Like a broken record on crack.
(lol. not mine. obviously. 8D)

Apparently, having a tumblr account has spurned my need to blog so... YAY! 8D/ I LIVE!

EDIT: OH. IT'S PAYDAY!

PAYDAY! PAYDAY! GONNA BUY FISH ON PAYDAAAY!! ♫

Current Mood: :/
Current Location: office. stalking.
Current Music: toilet flushing

So yeah.

I'm back again ~~but mostly just to rant~~.

I'm also, pretty much, sick again. Ugh. Why does my body feel the need to fail me at least once a month? My nose is all red and runny, my ears are pretty much blocked and I feel like I've been floating around the office all day due to heavy doses of medication (I'm taking three kinds of cough medicine. dunno if it's actually working, though).

( the miserable life of a personal assistant/copywriter/slave )

here's a picture to celebrate my misery:

My misery. let me show you it. :''D

Hey yeah, Happy Partyin~ FRIDAY! huh!

Oh. And just for the sake of continuity from my last post:

Oh yes. Yes I did.
World, meet Toto-chan. <3
(pretend you don't see my chin, rowkay? ktnxbai.)

Current Mood: DX
Current Location: office. dying in my seat
Current Music: radioo~oh~ohh ♫

OHGAWD.

Where am I supposed to find a school uniform for the Jun Party? D: D:

dnasbfmasf. i don't know anybody who still has one and is the same size as me.

*weeps*

T^T

/rant

Current Mood: ; w ;
Current Location: work
Current Music: radioo~oh~ohh ♫

Getting job rejection letters two days in a row had numbed the pain of disappointment for me. X''D

Actually, I managed to wedge my way up to the 2nd interview with my first application. Passed the test, passed (barely...?) the first interview and eventually got scheduled to a second interview. :D

Sooo close.

So very veeery close.

But yeah.

X'D

*sobs* meh. that's life i guess. X'D

Anyway, I went to another job interview this morning. It was probably the shortest one I ever did. It only lasted around 5 minutes. T^T

Interviewer: So, when will you be able to start working as a writer here? < :D >

Me: Hmm~ I think, maybe.... around the middle of July? I need at least a month's notice to give to my office first. < :D >

Interviewer: . . . < : l >

Me: . . .? < :D ? >

Interviewer: ...we need someone who can start next week, kasi. < : o >

Me: . . . . . . . . . . . . . . ??! < .__. >

B-but---

Interviewer: So, umm, sorry. Thank you for comming anyway! NEEXT! < 8D >

Me: . . . . . . . < T^T >

My ego. SHE DEFLATES. ~~continuously.~~ 8'''Db

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Random pic of the day:

My 22nd birthday cake.

♥Mango♥

EDIT:

Just bought an original WiiMote + Motion Plus + Sports Resort game for my Wiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii~!!

mfkdmgkmsdlgmoeirjgsdgsfsjihjdnsjgbiy78Y*(DYFSYF!!!!

I never thought that there will come a day that I'll be buying something as expensive as a Wii (and its accesories T^T) with my own money (seeing as I've turned into a Nino shortly after joining the 'work force').

My heart rejoices.. yet my wallet... she weeps. 8''''D

Current Mood: raain~ <3
Current Location: work. still.
Current Music: Microsoft error sounds

I, am officially bankrupt. T^Tb

I bought these from Red Monster Shop@fb:

arashi canvass bag 8D (the big one)

( arashi- Emptying your wallet with their awesomeness )

Its things like these that put my mother at ease knowing that I still contribute to the growth of the economy (a.k.a. a person who buys stuff). D:

Will be meeting up with

leiyah_chan tonight for some dinner and to hand her my payment ~~(and maybe a little more flailing? XD)~~.

Meetup for 'the stuff' ~~(lol)~~ was supposed to be tom at the ArashiPhilippines party. I couldn't go since I spent my extra money last week at the JE party (WHERE I WAS IN THE SAME ROOM WITH MY DEAR BELOVED

quartered AND DIDN'T EVEN KNOW IT. /ANGST /ANGER /SHOFAIL).

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On an unrelated news... my dog died last Monday. ;__; and what's more is that, she was the second one this month. :C My other dog died a week earlier. My dad says it's probably a bad case of the heat stroke. T--T Rest in peace my beloved inu-chans! ♥ ILU!

Current Mood: :/
Current Location: work....?
Current Music: sound of the company phone ringing

Today is so.. crappy. Xo

Hell, it isn't SUPPOSED TO BE CRAPPY. T____T

Today is Sho's bday and.. and... GAH. Just- GAH (in red bloody letters).

My day started out so well and it just went downhill the moment I stepped foot in school (okay, well, after the free nescafe ice from Dada Queckie anyway... ).

Damn it. I'll write more about it tomorrow. I'll go drown my sorrows by having a 5 hour Simpsons marathon. :p

Hmph.

Anyway...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHO-CHAN!! <3!!! :D